Married At First Sight’s Jamie Otis and Doug Hehner’s Rainbow Baby Maternity Photos


A Pregnancy Journey Of Loss, Suffering, Hope, and Rainbows

I’m sitting here cross legged on my couch. I just got our beautiful maternity photos from our photographer, Limelight Photography. The pups are curled up next to me and the fan is blowing cool air on my face. My hubby is baking some cookies so our house smells so yummy. Best of all, our baby is kicking and moving happily all over inside me.

We have made it! We are 9 months pregnant and our baby girl is fully developed inside me so if she were to come tomorrow, she’d be healthy as can be. …I just closed my eyes, smiled, and let go of the breath I’ve been holding since the moment I found out we were pregnant with our rainbow baby. I am so THANKFUL for this moment right here.

As I look through these photos I am reminded of everything we went through to get to this very moment.

Married At First Sight: Where It All Began

Anyone who has followed my hubby’s and my story knows it hasn’t always been easy for us. (But who has it always been easy for?!) When we were Married At First Sight it wasn’t “love at first sight.” After we began falling in love we had to overcome a lot of obstacles – just like any other “normal” couple. Undoubtedly, the most difficult obstacle we ever went through is something I don’t wish on my worst enemy – the loss of our first baby.

Twinkle twinkle little star, up in Heaven is where you are.
Flying high and twinkling bright. My guiding star, my shining light.
Twinkle twinkle little star, my perfect angel is who you are.
*Big brother, Johnathan Edward Hehner*

Johnathan Edward Hehner, Our Angel Baby

When Doug and I were pregnant with our first baby, Johnathan, I had BIG plans! I wanted to blog throughout my whole pregnancy. I was going to document every single moment so I didn’t forget one single second of him growing inside me.

I have wanted to be a mommy as long as I can remember. If you were to ask me what I wanted to be when I was little, it would have been “a mommy!” …and a teacher or singer. Haha.

Our baby boy, never forgotten. PHOTO:

Miscarriage and Pregnancy Loss

With our first pregnancy we did the socially acceptable “wait until you’re out of your first trimester to announce you’re pregnant.” We were actually four months pregnant when we went on Kathy Lee and Hoda’s Today Show to share the best news of our lives: we were pregnant!

About a week after we revealed to the world that we were pregnant, we lost our son. To say I went into a miserable depression is an understatement. I felt hopeless and lost; scared and alone.

I remember immediately after I delivered Johnny I just wanted to hold him and stare at him forever. I didn’t want to let go. I couldn’t believe how precious and seemingly fully developed he was. I remember saying in awe to my hubby, “Wow, we made him!” He was so perfect with all ten fingers and ten toes. He was so itty bitty that he fit right into the palm of my hand.

His shoes that he never got to wear. 🙁

Absolute Heartbreak

When the nurses tried to take him from me I asked if I could have just a little more time with him. I just couldn’t let go so fast. I tried kissing his forehead, but his skin was so delicate that it stuck to my lips. I began crying thinking I hurt him. I wanted to hold him close to me on my chest and rock him, but he was so fragile that I was scared I’d squeeze too tight and hurt his already bruised little body.

My poor baby lay helpless in my hands. There was nothing as a mommy that I could do to protect him and nurture him. I’ve never felt such emptiness. A deep, dark hole formed in my heart.

Before I let the nurses take him, I promised my baby boy that I would never forget him and that I’d make sure no one else would either. He may have only lived a short 17 weeks, 1 day in my belly, but his life was precious. I’d spend my life loving him and honoring his short life.

As I gave the nurses my baby boy I cried from the depths of my soul. I could only hope that my baby boy knew how loved and special he will always be to his mommy and daddy. He’s our first born son and he will never be forgotten.

My sweet baby boy.

Feelings of Hope

I’m not going to lie, I never really had any “hopeful” feelings after we lost our son. I wasn’t very optimistic. I didn’t want to hear “God had a plan, that’s why he took him.” or “Everything happens for a reason.” As a matter of fact, I hated hearing those “comforting” words. I knew that everyone was just trying to be loving, but nothing anyone said helped heal the pain.

I felt like the only thing to fill the void in my heart and soul was to be pregnant again. I felt like I needed to be pregnant. It felt so wrong to no longer be pregnant, but not have my baby to hold either.

Even in times of absolute devastation, never give up hope.

Rainbow Baby

My hubby and I found out we were pregnant with our rainbow baby on December 20th, 2016. That was Johnathan’s due date. I have no words for this amazing “coincidence.” I’m not usually superstitious or overly spiritual, but I truly believe our rainbow baby was a gift sent down from heaven from her big brother, Johnny.

After every storm, there is a rainbow of hope.

I am due August 24th, 2017 with a baby girl. I didn’t blog about my pregnancy or anything super important during this pregnancy. I guess I was too scared and I just wanted to take it day by day and try to do everything in my power to keep her safe and nurtured within me. I also didn’t want any judgement for any of the feelings I was having. But, now that we are 37 weeks pregnant and she could be born tomorrow healthy and viable, I feel like I can finally relax and begin sharing more about this sweet girl who is rolling around safe and sound in my belly!

Maternity Shoot

Just like we promised our baby boy, we haven’t forgotten him. Not for one second. We love him immensely and made sure to have a piece of him present with us during our maternity shoot.

I am so happy to share these beautiful photos and I just quickly want to thank  for beautifully capturing our pregnancy journey. I’ll be posting another blog soon with more of these stunning photos – as long as our sweet girl doesn’t decide to come early. 🙂

Until the next blog, I’ll leave you with one of my favorite photos from our maternity shoot:


P.S. We revealed our rainbow baby’s name on Facebook LIVE – if you want to watch I put the video down below for ya. 🙂

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  1. Such a beautiful name! 🙂
    We are due 4 weeks after you with our little girl which we are naming her Harper Grace 🙂 so it’s funny to me 🙂
    We come from VERY similar backgrounds, so similar it’s almost like we’re the same person.
    Only difference is I have a 2 1/2 year old little boy.
    Crazy how when your so similar to someone you feel like you know them!
    Congratulations Jamie! You deserve this happiness. I can’t wait to see pictures of your sweet little girl 🙂 and then 4 weeks after I’ll have mine 🙂
    Good luck with the labor and delivery. I pray it all goes very smooth for you! 🙂

  2. HI Jamie,
    I started following you when i binge watched the first season of married at first sight. You and your husband are my absolute favorite couple from the show!
    Little did I know, there was a bigger purpose for my interest in you. I was very sad when I learned the news of your baby boy Jonathan (that is my husband’s name by the way), but I didn’t know what that loss was going to represent to me in the future.
    My own baby boy, Noah died and was born two weeks ago. My pregnancy was going amazingly, and all of the sudden, and infection invaded my womb and made me go into labor, my baby died on Tuesday, and I delivered him on Wednesday July 26th at exactly 14 weeks gestation.
    I am lost, devastated and broken, as you could understand. I am in fact, a woman of faith. and the Lord has provided me with the peace I need to move day by day. I find comfort in knowing that there is nothing this world could provide, even though I would have given up my life for Noah, that will truly fulfill me, only Jesus. Even though the pain is way too strong and real.
    But the reason I am writing to you is to thank you for the hope your beautiful maternity photos has given me. Right now, I cannot even begin to think about getting pregnant again. I cannot imagine going through this pain again and I am just taking one second at a time.
    Thank you for honoring your first born throughout your pregnancy. My biggest fear is to forget Noah. To rock my perfectly healthy baby in a rocking chair and forget the longing I had to rock Noah, I am terrified. But you gave me hope.
    I pray the delivery of your baby girl is perfect and smooth! Good luck! God bless you!

  3. I am so excited and happy for yall when you lost johnny my heart broke with you love you jamie otis

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