Married At First Sight: “You Need Therapy”

How do I begin to write a Married At First Sight: The First Year recap when last week’s episode was like a slap in the face.

The first thing I want to do is try to explain myself. I feel like I need to help you understand why I am the way I am – to prove I am not as lousy as I appear to be. I mean, who wouldn’t want to defend their actions when they look like a raging lunatic on national television?

Have you ever watched your actions back? I’ve never had the chance to see myself this way until Married At First Sight. It’s amazing what you learn about yourself when you don’t censor yourself and you have cameras documenting your every move.

I don’t think I need to recap this Married At First Sight: The First Year episode, but if you’d like I can sum it up in one sentence: When my husband tries to apologize for arriving late to my little sister’s wedding and then abruptly leaving I don’t even want to hear his apology… and then my husband, my in-laws, and Dr. Pepper let me know I have the most outlandish “trust issues” and I need therapy. Well that all may be true but man does it feel bad having to watch this back.

If you think I look like the scum of the earth imagine how I feel seeing myself from an outsiders perspective.

I may have my reasons, but no one wants to read a grown woman whine about her personal and marital problems. And I refuse to stoop as low as begging you to understand me and stop judging me with your comments on Twitter, Instagram, and Facebook – because quite frankly I’d probably judge me too.

When everyone says I need therapy I don’t disagree. Since we taped this I have been going to see a professional therapist, but writing has also been my therapy. And it feels more therapeutic than any other form of therapy. It’s amazing how just the simple act of writing it all out helps heal your soul. Since this is the first time it seems appropriate to share more about my story I decided to give ya’ll a sneak peek into my first book, Wifey 101: Everything I Got Wrong After Meeting Mr. Right. I hope by me sharing my story it will help heal and inspire others as well.

It’s a scary, vulnerable feeling when you put your whole heart out there, but I’ve been told time and time again that no one ever healed from pushing their problems down inside and hiding. So, here it goes:

Click here for the first chapter of Wifey 101: Everything I Got Wrong After Meeting Mr. Right.

Please note: final revisions for Wifey 101 are being made and this preview may or may not be revised before it’s final release date of June 7, 2016.