Married At First Sight: The First Year
Season 2 Episode 2
Well, that was tough to watch. I don’t know what’s more difficult – having to re-live the struggles I’ve recently had with my husband, Doug or watch myself be a complete snot to him?! Married At First Sight: The First Year has been so incredibly difficult to swallow this season.
Listen, I could go on and on trying to explain why I feel and say what I do, but at the end of the day I need to own up to my mistakes and flaws – not defend them. I am trying to learn from my problems as I work through them.
There’s really not a whole lot I want to talk about on last week’s episode. But one thing I do want to mention is how amazing and supportive my in-laws are – my mother & father in law in particular. To hear what my husband says to his dad about our marriage makes my heart hurt so bad. The bitter truth always does. But, to watch Doug Sr. kind of look out for me makes the sting hurt a bit less. His parents have always been so warm and welcoming to me. (Well, at least his dad. His mom took a bit to warm up.) 🙂
At the end of the day I’m just trying to live and learn. I know I’m not perfect. As a matter of fact, I am far, far from it. But, I AM willing to look at myself and see where I need to change. I have been spending my whole life protecting myself from being hurt. I have never just let loose and trusted that I’d be ok. That is such a scary thought for me. Who will be there for me if I do?
I’m not necessarily looking forward to watching tonight’s episode. You’ll see the reality of all of the marital problems we’ve been having – I’m going to need a big glass of wine and my #MAFSFamily by my side! You guys have always been so encouraging and understanding. Thanks for all the love and support guys!
P.S Doug and I will be taking over WetPaint’s Facebook and Instagram account! Come hang with us here: Doug And Jamie LIVE answering your questions!!!