Weight Gain Blues
I’ve been lost in thought lately. There are so many things that I am sad and disappointed by. Obviously the big elephant in the room is the lack of our baby, even though his swing is all assembled, and his mobile and clothes are still hanging around. There’s not a lot that doesn’t remind me of my angel baby, Johnathan. My only escape is staying very busy.
The worst is looking pregnant and feeling pregnant still. (This may be TMI, but my breasts still have that awful tenderness. That was the first sign I noticed way back in my first few weeks of being pregnant. I suppose when the hormones leave my body this will go away, too.) I haven’t worked out in months, but after losing my son I felt like I HAD to run the pain away. I was sent a pair of VerveRider+ wireless earbuds a couple months ago. I’d never heard of them before so I asked my husband, Doug, how to use them. He’s such a tech geek I knew he’d figure it out quickly. Within two minutes he showed me how to connect them to my phone (they’re wireless) and I hit the road running. Working out is really great therapy. And I didn’t even realize how out of shape and unhealthy I’ve become until I went for that first run a couple weeks ago.
VerveRider+
Like I said before, VerveLife sent me their new VerveRider+ headphones to see if I’d like them. They sent them to me when I was still pregnant and I had no idea I’d lose my baby. I promised them I’d try them out and if I liked ’em I’d share all about them with you guys. Even though I am going through a hard time, I am keeping that promise. I believe in keeping promises, working hard, and helping others. I feel like I am accomplishing that all in this blog post. 🙂
To be honest, I didn’t use these headphones much during the first couple weeks I had them because quite frankly working out, cleaning, yard work was the very last thing on my mind—and that’s when I typically listen to music/podcasts on my phone/computer. It wasn’t until after I lost my sweet boy did I NEED these headphones. I felt like I NEEDED to run, run, run. And that I did. I cried a lot during these runs (sometimes I still do), but somehow the burn I get in my legs takes the heaviness out of my chest, even if it’s only momentarily. Blasting my music on these headphones takes the thoughts out of my mind.
For those of you who are thinking ‘What the heck is VerveLife and VerveRider+?’ you’re not alone. I had no clue either. So allow me to introduce you, because I think you’d like these headphones, too. VerveLife is an exciting NEW brand of wireless connected products launching worldwide, including here in the U.S. VerveRider+ is a wireless headphone and one of VerveLife’s new products…currently my fav. VerveLife offers a solution to busy lifestyles with a unique range of wireless connected audio and video devices. The cool thing about VerveLife is their devices are designed for real life—for work, play, social—they fit into everything. These devices were made for people like you and me (at least I assume you’re a bit like me.): we revel in the challenge to rise to any occasion, test ourselves, stretch our abilities, and find out where our limits truly are. We pack a lot into our lives. For those of you who follow me on social media, you know I’ve been staying extra busy since our loss. It’s the only way to numb the pain and begin healing.
I’m not much of a “sporty” girl and I’m definitely not “techy.” So when I read that these headphones are Siri and Google compatible, have built-in aptX® technology that delivers powerful HD sound, and have customizable sound profiles that let you “hear music just the way you like” I was kinda thinking these are way out of my league. They sound so high-tech and fancy, I’ll never know how to use them! But I was wrong; I was shocked to see how easy they are to use. The thing I like best after using them for the last few weeks is that I can take phone calls with them and there’s no wire dangling as I run. Oh, and I love that they’re sweat/water proof. No way would I ever go for a run outside in the rain, but God knows I sweat a lot when I work out.
Another thing I like about these headphones in comparison with regular head phones is that they’re wireless and they have this sleek design where the collar has a contoured shape that is made to fit your body so it hardly feels like you’re wearing them. There’s no annoying wire bouncing up and down and getting in the way as you run and do your work out. Best part of all, the battery stays charged for about 12 hours so I don’t have to plug it in all the time.
Staying Busy
I gained a total of 15-20 pounds during my short-lived pregnancy. 🙁 I packed on 10 during the first trimester. Then—between being on bed rest and a ball full of emotions the last few weeks—I threw another 5-10 big LB’s on. Nothing’s worse than losing your baby and then still looking and feeling pregnant. I don’t want to lose myself completely so I’ve began my own personal work out program. Doug took a “before” photo of me today. I’m not going to share this photo until I have my “after” photo as well. (I am way too embarrassed!) We want to try for our rainbow baby as soon as the doctor says we can. I want to be as healthy as possible this next time around.
Living on the go helps me get through my days. It was kind of perfect timing when I received my VerveRider+ headphones because they’ve been so helpful in keeping me moving. Today is August 1st. I hope by September 1 I will have a great “after” photo to share with you. Until then, I’m going to keep doing my little personal work outs and using these VerveRider+ headphones while doing it! 🙂
The VerveRider+ headphones are originally $99.99, If you want to grab a pair and see more items that VerveLife offers just click here or go to Verve.Life. 🙂
Disclosure: This post is sponsored by VerveLife and I have been compensated for my participation. But, all of these opinions are my own—I’m not paid for the extra nice review I gave them—I just genuinely like my VerveRider headphones that much and I truly think if you want freedom from wire headphones you’d like these headphones, too. 🙂
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6 comments
I have been where you are. After 4 years of trying, a baby….then no baby. You never “move on” or “get over it”. The pain just lessens a little bit everyday but you don’t forget. It’s been 5 years and the pain can be just under the surface. But because of our hard work trying for a baby and going through our tragedy together we became a better couple and in reality, now better parents. 11 months after our loss our miracle baby happened. Lily Pearl is 3 now and her sister Promise Emerald came a 2 years later without even trying. I think because of our loss we appreciate what we have even more, where we might not of if it came easily. Grieve, cry, eat. There is nothing wrong with remembering and never letting yourself forget your Angel baby. Prayers for you and yours.
Thank you so much – I am so happy for you. I hope one day to have my rainbow babies too. xoxo
That photo of you is gorgeous! Don’t get your eyebrows done, they look fantastic. You are a natural beauty, and need less makeup etc to show how beautiful you are. I am so happy to hear that you will try for you rainbow baby soon. Hoping this time next year, you have a little one in your arms. When you have your little baby, you will be a wonderful mother.
Thank you so much Muriel. 🙂
Friend, don’t be so hard on yourself! Your eyebrows are fine, and you look beautiful. Glad you know yourself well enough to know what helps you heal. Blessings to you and Doug.
Thank you so much..:-)